Gee. I guess I'm just too transparent. You guys are just too smart for me.
You got me. I'm really a dude. With a really really really really really big penis.
And a big gaping asshole.

Oh no, wait. YOU guys are the big gaping assholes.

Thank you for playing.

I confess...

I've always been attracted to my big brother. Not so much when we were in grammer school--though there were those furtive looks and sexual curiosity that happens in a small house...when you're the only girl.

The image I have of him is from junior high. He'd just started "training" for the wrestling team and went from scrawny and pale to virile and pale (what can I say...we're Irish;). Young. Muscular. Smooth soft skin. Hairless. Just oozing phermones. Sweet boy.

I'd always known I was attracted to him. I confessed once to a girlfriend in high school...and got ridiculed. So I never shared that again. It wasn't til I followed a post on a kinky website...and found there were people who weren't ashamed to admit it.

A while back I had a dream about him. In the junior high years...he was maybe 14-15...I, a year younger.

We were on a family camping trip. sharing a tent. I woke up to him moving around. Kind of forgot where we were for a moment. Slightly surprised and happy to see he was next to me. Instantaneously self-conscious and squirmy in my body. Overly aware of him. Inexplicably pulled to him yet terrified to have a part of me touch him.

We moved around in our sleeping bags. Waking; kicking them off "by accident". leaving my little legs and thighs exposed. All of a sudden aware that my white baby doll nightie is see through. I can feel rather than see his eyes on me. I can feel the heat coming off him.

We begin nervously talking. Break into giggles. Think we hear something so we put our hands over our mouths--looking at each other wide eyed--smiles in our eyes. Conspiratorily giggle through our hands. The coast clear. We breathe again. The air pregant with tension.

I'm SHAKING i'm so nervous. I can feel my heart beating a mile a minute.

I open my legs a little. My nightie drifts ever so slightly higher. Exposing my little white panties. I feel his hand on my leg. Hot. His hand is hot. Sweaty. I'm terrified he'll move it. Terrified he won't. I can't look at him. I can tell he's staring at me. It seems like forever. I can't breathe.

Finally I a little moan escapes my throat. My back arches ever so slightly. My little titties push against my nightie--my hard nipples poke through. My hips--almost on their own volition--reach for his hand. This is too much for him.

His hand rushes up my thigh and roughly pushes aside my panties. His fingers push past the lips of my pussy and find the wetness there. He grunts/moans something unintelligble. By now my legs are nearly wide open and I'm silently begging him to put his fingers in me.

A part of my brain is mortified. I know I'm not supposed to want this. I'm being bad. We're not supposed to be doing this but I can't help it. I can't think of anything else. Only him inside me. I'm terrified someone will hear but I also don't care. All I can think of is his fingers in me...all I can think of is pleasing him.

He shoves his fingers inside me and i'm fucking his hand frantically. He's breathing hard. I can feel his hardness against my thigh as he rubs himself against me. I can hardly breathe. I am loving it. I love him.

Then I wake up. I'm wet and throbbing.

That's it. Best dream ever. I'm wet again as I type...gotta go;)

*i posted this a while ago...but found that i couldn't respond to any of the comments. thought maybe it was because i didn't have an account. i have now remedied that;)

Someone commented that the post: Is a fake. It's a dude. Or some such crap. I assure you. I'm very much female...and terribly cute ;)

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i confess.

i had a dream last night. similar to one i had about my big brother involving camping, a tent and him fingerfucking me. hawt!!!!

i think i was maybe 19-20. i was at my parents' house. my mom had gone out on an errand. i was drinking a glass of red wine and sitting with my dad. talk turned to topics somewhat salacious. i can't remember exactly what. i remember feeling turned on...and feeling guilty. kinda looking around to see if anyone was around and heard us. i sort of lean back in my chair and have my legs a little open.

all of a sudden he stands up and in two quick strides he’s standing over me. He pushes my legs further open and shoves his fingers in me and starts finger fucking me roughly. i'm out of my freakin head. i knew i wasn’t supposed to like it. i knew i “should” be objecting—telling him to stop--but i was so fucking turned on. i wanted it. i couldn’t get enough. i wanted more. i was so proud of being my daddy’s little girl. i want him to do it harder and faster. he grabs one of my titties and roughly pulls on it.

then we hear a door open and close. and we both separate quickly. and try to act normal.

i 'wake' up and i start jerking madly to the idea of it all...my pussy starts to ache almost painfully as my pussy is screaming for release. only then do i *actually* really wake as my hand is jerking in mid air. i'd only been dreaming of jerking to it all. this happens again. my pussy aching and screaming for release...only to find my hand is jerking in air above my head.

then. before i fully come awake--in the haze of the dream state--before the committee in my head can put the kabosh on it all...i jerk off madly to thoughts of my dad mercilessly finger-fucking me.

i’m such a good girl ;)

i'm twitching and wet as i type this. gonna jerk off to the idea of my brother doing it to me...