Apparently my new(ish) tastes aren't an uncommon trauma reaction, but I can get a little... affected by them. :) Just please don't judge, and I understand if they're not your cup of tea.

I'm a divorced single mom and my son was gone for the weekend, so I went out drinking and tried to find somebody to take home -- usually it's pretty easy. I found a guy who was pretty young (19, turns out, but he was drinking at the bar so... IDK, wouldn't have cared either way). I brought him home, and we started making out in the car... to the doorway... to the living room... but he was like, really holding me up along the way, all playful and cutesy.

I was SOOOoooo into it (he was already pretty cute but there's NO guys who know how to like, "time it out" while they're working on a girl, y'know?). I told him "I'm keeping you" at the bar, and on the ride home I kept giggling "Alejandro's just for me," like... eight times (I was tipsy).

Turns out he was slow playing our way in on purpose because his brother -- his younger brother (no comment/yikes) -- followed us home.

He was choking me, just a little, and asked if I'd ever been a teenager's bitch, which honestly made me cream... and THEN, he asked me how many times I had drank piss, which was NOT my thing. And I was going to kind of laugh it off, like, "Mmmmnoooo, baby boy." And that's about when I could hear somebody else in the driveway (didn't put it together).

But he started really choking me. And I still thought we were being sexy, til he said, "Actually, yes. Your nigger ass and your nigger mouth are just for me." I DO NOT (or did not) like that kind of stuff, so I started trying to pull out and kind of... not bitch him out, right? Because I wanted to fuck, but I thought I could sort of set him straight... nope. :(

Instead he starts full-on choking me with two hands and said something and then... *click/OhWhatTheFuckOhShit/dooropens/doorcloses/lock* and then there were two teenagers in my house.

Basically, he told me what they were going to do, and Alejandro said if I took them to my room and made it easy, they'd make it easy on me. I remember this part so vividly. I think about how different my life would be if I had actually been a good girl right then.

Alejandro told me "put your tongue in my mouth and say 'thank you,'" and instead, I screamed, which they were ready for, because they had me over the back of the couch and were choking me SO quick. They started slapping me and Alejandro kept saying "be good, nigger," and when he asked if I was ready I just kept crying so he choked me til I said "Yes." They made me strip in my living room and pose... that picture "Involuntary" I uploaded was from the first night. I don't know if you can tell a virgin asshole from any other by sight, but... you can probably tell from the screaming (I've had fingers up there but I always SHUT. THAT. DOWN.)

They took me into MY SON'S BEDROOM and both of them raped me in there. I also had to drink Alejandro's piss, and eat his brother's asshole (I never learned his name). I usually had to say "thank you" or ask for the next thing they were going to do to me. I also vomited everywhere on my son's bed, which is when they took me into my own room and filmed the video on my profile. I thought I wouldn't have had it in me by that point, but a lot of that audio was me screaming "No," by the way. More than once I had to say "Thank you papi," and "My ass is Alejandro's."

For a while I was tied up on my own bed and they took turns for three days. I never came once. I never once liked what happened or wanted to like it.

They came inside of me almost every single time, until my son came home.

Up until then, all of this had been endurable because I was grateful that he wasn't involved, and wouldn't ever have to see what they were doing.

But they showed him the videos, they made him watch what they did to me, and they made me say, "Mommy needs this," before I had to use my mouth to get him hard. But they changed their mind, and they said if he could make me cum they'd leave.

He couldn't, so instead, I had to talk my son through being raped, while somebody else was inside of me. At this point, my body betrayed me, and I came.

I got pregnant after the whole thing and aborted it, obviously, but now my son lives with his grandparents and I do this.