I was molested by a friend of the family from 8 to 12. Sometimes he would come in my room feel me up lick me or get me to suck is while he felt me up. I never told on him. When dads friend would get me alone he would take naked pics of me and did that for years. When I was 10 he started introducking me to other girls my age or some a little older and he would watch us play naked and do things with eachother and take pics of us. He moved away when I was 12 and I never saw him again. My dad died last year and I was cleaning out his house to sale the estate and found 100's of the naked pics his friend took of me and the other girls and his friend doing things with me. There were also pics of him with his friends son and daughter all naked and doing things. All this time I had no idea he even knew muchless was allowing it to go on while he did the same with other girls and boys. Mom passed way when I was 16 so I cant ask if she was aware or not but it does put a whole diffferent spin on how you think of your dad and what he was thinking as he looked at the pics and knew what was being done to me all those years.
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wow.. dont know what im feeling after reading that, horny or sad!
defo... horny! :)
Wow.... do you regret it? Or do you actually enjoy the fact that ti did happen?
I dont know how I can say I am glad it happened. How does one know how you might of changed from it. As far as how I accept and live with things as i am. I tend to say it was for the most part fun. I didnt like one of the girls he put me with but the others were ok. I even found other girls to do things with during sleepovers and got a few to do things for their first time and that was awesome.
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Tell us about your 1st orgasm, or what it was like when he licked you for the first time.
Departing from the usual tone of this site:
This is something I've often wondered about, just how many parents do have sexual thoughts or urges for their children but don't act on them. And then what is it that prevents them from acting on it; fear of hurting their child, fear of the social consequences if discovered?
I mean it's perfectly normal to have some type of internal fantasy that would be considered immoral or even criminal, from a sneaky shag in public to rape fantasies or even snuff. A shitload more people fantasize about these things than actually carry it out.
So what's keeping them from crossing that line? And does crossing that line mean you're now beyond redemption in the community's eyes? For 99% of the time you have an upstanding citizen but that 1% of abhorrent behavior is something we fixate on and will never forgive or forget. Have we maybe gotten that part wrong? Particularly in dealing with victims of abuse?
Throughout the process we tell them they were not at fault, that their attacker is the criminal and responsible, that they took the victims power of consent away from them and on and on.
The entire process reinforces the role of the victim as a victim from the start. The trauma of whatever event took place is a highly subjective thing. It's processed and understood with whatever capacity the victim has at the time, so a six year old can only understand what is happening to them in the context of a six year old's understanding. If they're told it's a game they will believe it's a game. Later as they learn about sexual abuse through school or media they usually piece it together.
Some pick themselves up, some go to pieces and some just honestly don't see it as anything good or bad - the latter are the people who interest me - what is it that is done or not done or what do they have or do not have that allows them to achieve that kind of result?
I guess my point would be if anything; for all you kiddy fiddling types out there and even those of you who get off on it but don't actually touch them, don't take a smile or a giggle or a laugh from a child who has an adult pawing at them for their own sexual pleasure as consent or willingness because they don't have the capacity to understand what it is they are doing. As adults, children trust us to explain the world to them. It's a humbling responsibility and a privilege, don't abuse it.
Thats a pretty tough situation to deal with. If it was fun for the most part and you didnt feel used or violated then just remember it as that. As far as your father knowing and having the pics at least he had the decency to keep his hands off you and be a father, even if he had those fantasies and thoughts in his mind to overcome.
