I will never treat a girl nicer because I start to care about her again. I have a gf (sub/dom relationship) of just over a year and things have been going rocky for awhile, everything I wanted to do anything fun (read anal, beating her, strip her in public ect.) she would just whine and complain ect ect. After awhile I started to let it get to me because I started to care but things really started to go south, she was refusing to let me do stuff like threesomes or other girls and other kink stuff and it was just making for a bad spite building relationship.
So recently (about 4 days ago) I finally decided to stop let me caring about her effect how I treat/train her, I've fucked her ass hard atleast 20 times since then, usually with her begging me not to to the point where some might consider it rape, treated her worse then ever forced her to obey and just told her to shut up and hurt her badly when she starts her whiny bullshit.
Results have been very positive, sex is better, she started cumming more even, she's already starting to come around on the whole other girl thing. I realized that I can't let people warp me I have to be the one warping people, I convinced my good friend to fuck a guy over 20 years older then her who she was crushing on randomly at work (she only did one guy before) just to see if I could and get her off the benches for later as well.
I have this duality about me where I'm both the kind of asshole that warps minds and makes people do extreme things for my amusement/person gain but I also care deeply about things and part of me wants to save the whole fucking world. I often end up fighting my self and doing shitty half way things because of this. But that 4ish days ago I decided to embrace my dark side, stop caring what other people want and just fucking mess with them like I know I can, even if it fucks up their lives.
The reason I'm posting this is because I know I can't tell anyone this. Me and my good friend are extremely honest with each other but this is something I have to keep to myself. The irony is she's the one who made me realize what was going on with my gf/slave and why thinks were sucking so bad, but I'm not stupid this is one of those things you don't tell people.
