I am a premature ejaculator w/ a average penis. The last time i got laid was 2014 and it was hell. The last time we had sex was 2009, i graduated HS in 2005. I used to be great at sex, i mean pretty damn good. It was late 2008 my gf and i broke up and the premature started about 2/3 into our relationship. When things started to get rocky i was blowing my load quicker and quicker. Eventually she broke up w/ me. That is when the downfall started, i started going quicker and quicker, I eventually found a quick fix i would never recommend to anyone. I started using opiates to numb the sensation, percocet, oxy contin, methadone and morphine. It brought my game back but a new issue arised out of this, i was so numb i could not get off. But i did not care, it has always been about me pleasuring her. During this time, my ex gf who recently broke up w/ me started to date a good friend. I became kind of crazy and did everything i could for her to be in my life. I sucked up my pride and became her best friend. 2010 rolls around and we are back together, all my work paid off. But i have not had sex to many times during the period we were not together so when we started to fuck i would go quick. So i did my duty and went down on her to get her off. Man i still remember the sweet taste of her pussy. To make it short, i was taking care of her and her child. She found out she was pregnant 2 weeks before we started to date, a bad one night stand. When we first got together the second time around, she was in her panties and was rubbing against my cock and i blew my load w/o entering her. Luckily for me that is the only time that has ever happened. To make a story short she cheated on me while i was working 60 hours a week for her and her child while she stayed home. Everyone told me she was cheating and i was delusional. My mom and dad made a bet w/ me that i would hide a secret camera and if she did not cheat they would give me 2500 dollars. the deal was to good to pass up, i was thinking this is the easiest money i will ever make. Plus i wanted them off my back about my girl. It was not even 24 hours of putting the camera up, i saw her take a guy into our bedroom. I never saw them have sex, but the signs were there. I never told my ex about this, i struggled for a few days to figure out what i was going to do. i ended up leaving the apartment and giving her 30 days to find a place while i stayed w/ my parents.
Anyways, i have had many gfs, well four serious gf's and there were never any repercussions. Ever since her the first time around, i am a premature ejaculator. I have had somewhere between 20-25 sexual partners and since 2010 besides that one time w/ a different ex gf i have steered away from sex. It is to god damn embarrassing to blow my load 20-30 seconds after entering her and seeing her disappointed face. It is so hard, because i know what i was capable of and now i cant even do it. I am now 29,and i shy away from any female contact. I have tried EVERYTHING, i have a stamina unit flashlight, i tried the stop and go routine, i tried the kegels by flexing my dick. The next thing i am about to try is my last resort but a sex therapist. It has to be psychological. But when i enter a chick, i think of her wetness and i feel her wet pussy, as i look at her eyes or the back of her head and i see my dick go in and out of her. When i tell myself "do not think about how good it feels". Then i start to think about how good it feels and i start singing the ABC's or the pledge of the allegiance to take my mind off the pleasure. all the mean while i am thinking about how good her wet pussy feels as my dick is sliding in and out of her, while the wetness of her pussy is all over my balls and shaft.
TL;DR
A girl dumped me years ago and became a premature ejaculator, and can not over come it. Id give anything to last five minutes lol.
