I must confess that 3 weeks ago I started seeing someone that has been in a committed relationship for 13 years, she is engaged but not married. 2 kids, house etc. I had posted a personal on craigslist with some pics of myself explaining that I wanted to dominate and manhandle someone. treat them like an object, but in a sensual way, force them to cum over and over...D/s type treatment etc.
her response was "I am 35 y/o. Shaved. I've never had a man do that to me. I want that.". We met the next day and the last 3 weeks have been crazy...her and I skipping work to get together to play...lots of intense play. prior to 3 weeks ago the craziest thing that she had ever done sexually was "having sex with the lights on"....never had more than 1 or 2 orgasms in a play session. never even handled a sex toy before. very, very vanilla.
fast forward to the present. she texted me last night that ordered a vibrator and ben-wah balls online. loves it when I fuck her ass, lick her ass, loves to role play that we bro/sis, refers to me as "daddy" now...she is like a whole new person. Desperately wants to be in a D/s type of relationship with me. We are both having a shit ton of fun.
this is what is troubling me: 9 months ago I found out that my wife was having an affair, basically leading a double life with another guy. I vowed that I would never do that to another guy (my ex wife's BF knew that she was married while they were seeing eachother) as my ex wife's indiscretions have destroyed a family of 4 (I have our 2 sons almost full time right now). One of the things that had me so angry was that I did not consider her BF a real "man" as I believe that he should have told her that they needed to stop once it got to the point that it impacted our family.
Basically I am doing exactly what I vowed never to do. my new playmate is trying to create a dynamic where I am introduced to her BF and kids as a new "friend" so I would have the ability to be around her house without suspicion. This would obviously enable is to play and get each other off more frequently.
I know that if this happens, this entire "relationship" will blow up in her face and her family will be destroyed, just like mine. I have nothing to lose as I am now single.
I am starting to feel bad because I can see how overcome with lust and horniness she is and now that she is being serviced properly by me, her decision making is becoming very poor...she/we will be caught soon I think. all of a sudden she is starting to spend blocks of time out of the house with no good reason. Her sex drive is incessant and we are going down a bad path but neither one of us can help it
