Black girl with self harm scars on webcam in a hospital bed?

I kmow this is an odd place to turn for advice, but I'm curious what responses I will get. I am a 27 year old straight male with pedo and ephebophiliac tendencies, and some twisted sick fantasies. I'm not proud of it, but I've grown to accept it. I go weak in the knees whenever I see a cute girl about 16 or younger, and my heart races anytime I see one in any stage of undress. And I can't even begin to describe the feeling when I catch a glimpse of a hairless, pre-pubescent little pussy! Now I would never hurt a child, and while I fantasize about things like molestation, rape, blackmail, sharking, etc., I know the difference between fantasy and reality, and while I might go out of my way to peek up a tween's skirt or spy on a little girl getting undressed, I would kill myself before I ever knowlingly allowed harm or caused harm to come to a child.

Now having been a pedo most of my life and a male for all of it, I'm no stranger to being unfairly judged. I constantly hear the terms pedophile and child molester used synonymously. I know what it's like to always be passed up for a child care or sitter job even though I'm better qualified than another candidate simply because I'm male. I know what it's like to not even be able to confide in my closest friends for fear of being judged or told to stay away from their family. Quite frankly, it sucks.

So here's my issue. I've recently fallen in love with and gotten married to a wonderful woman who is, surprisingly, almost 9 years older than myself. She knows about my interests and is thankfully both understanding and forgiving. But with this marraige I have also gained two young nephews who live close and are a very active part of our lives now. Now I have never been interested in boys, so there is no problem there on my part, but my wife and I are about to take in a new roommate in the form of my brother, who is also a pedo. And unlike myself, he started off liking only girls, but over time has grown fond of boys as well, and to be honest, I think he actually prefers boys now.

So why is it that I, a pedo who hates being unfairly judged without being given a chance, is hesitant to allow my own brother, who is also a pedo, to be around his nephews without someone else to keep an eye on him. I know it's hypocritical, but I also know how difficult it can sometimes be to always behave and not give into temptation. I know that I can police myself, but I just don't know how strong his self control is.

So am I wrong to pre-judge my own brother for the same thing I have hated being pre-judged for my whole life? What would you do? Would you trust him with the boys? What about if they were girls? Would you trust him then? Would you trust ME? My wife and I are trying for kids of our own, and so this is just as relevant to our own future family as it is to my current sister-in-law's family now. What's your opinion?

From time to time I write about this because it makes me laugh.

I went to college with a set of twins, most people think identical, they were fraternal, brother and sister. He was sort of her inside guy and would admit which guys had what crush, turn one etc. She was his inside source providing female intel. All said including them the group was 10 of us. As a total joke... honestly a joke...  someone made a glory hole in one of the dorm closets. They had a spare door, so stupid college shit there it is.

The plan was we draw straws, female goes in the closet, male outside of it, definite handjob, more if you felt like it. No talking, no sound, 10 minutes each. To ease minds he told his sister we rigged it, so each person had their crush. And in truth we did rig it. Halloween prank, stupid college kid shit, paired them up so she'd give her brother a handjob. He had no clue, she had no clue, only a 3 of us knew (me, 1 other guy, 1 girl).

Perfect plan until after it happened. She told her friend it went from hand job to blowjob to fucking real quick. She hadn't planned on fucking, didn't have a wrap, and was disappointed because he didn't last long and blew it in her but she wasn't worried since she's on the pill. Once we realized what happened we swore not to talk about it ever again. I said my crush did way more and I didn't last. So did the other guy. This provided cover. We kept a close eye on both, didn't want that secret out and possible self harm.

But yeah played a prank and Murphy's Law it royally backfired and her own twin creampied her. Thank god she was on the pill! Taking that one to my grave!

Red Flags and Dating Tips for Kinky People

“Red flag” is a term to describe a personal trait or behavior that is common in people who are harmful to their partners. When getting to know someone online it is very important that you look for these red flags. When you see these red flags slow down or stop the relationship. Understand that none of these red flags alone are definitely a sign of a bad person. They only tend to be an indicator of a problem situation. The more you see these red flags, the more you are at risk. Many of these red flags can apply to both unhealthy Dominants and submissives.

These recommendations are to help you avoid getting into an abusive relationship. If you think you or someone you know is in an abusive relationship please visit NLA’s Domestic Violence Project web page at: http://www.nlaidvproject.us/

Red Flags:
• Tries to separate you from your friends, family or BDSM community
• Avoids talking about personal details. Gets mad when you ask or quickly ends the conversation or answers questions with questions.
• Has no BDSM references or friends you can talk to. Gets angry when you ask for references or ask around about them.
• Is inconsistent with details about themselves. Does not give you their home and work phone number at the appropriate time.
• Only communicates with you at strange hours and gets mad if you try to contact them at other times.
• Criticizes the BDSM community and refuses to participate, especially if they never were part of it.
• Consistently breaks promises. Always finds excuses for not meeting.
• Always puts blame on others for things going wrong. Does not take personal responsibility.
• Has bad relationships with most or all of their family members.
• Pressures you into doing things you do not want to do. Does not respect your limits, negotiations or contracts.
• Pushes you into a D/s relationship too fast.
• Falls in love with you way too fast and swears undying love before even meeting you.
• Hides behind their D/s authority and says that their authority should not be questioned.
• Tries to make you feel guilty for not being good enough. Says that you are not a “True” sub.
• Loses control of their emotions in arguments and regresses to yelling, name-calling and blame.
• Puts you down in front of other people.
• Turns instantly on their friends, going from best friend to arch enemy at the drop of a hat.
• Treats you lovingly and respectfully one day and then harshly and accusingly the next.
• Goes to great lengths to get revenge on people.
• Lies or withholds information.
• Cheats on you or is overly jealous.
• Will not discuss what your possible future relationship could be like. Tries to keep you in the dark about what might happen next in the relationship.
• Does not respect your feelings, rights, or opinions. Belittles your ideas. Blames you for your hurt feelings.
• Abuses alcohol or other drugs.
• Is constantly asking for large amounts of money from you or others.
• Threatens suicide or other forms of self-harm.
• Deliberately saying or doing things that result in getting themselves seriously hurt.
• Monitors your communications (emails, phone calls, chats) with others.
• Only interacts with you in a kinky or sexual manner as if role-playing. Will not have normal everyday vanilla conversations.
• Never shows you their human side. Is emotionless. Hides their vulnerability behind their D/s role.
• Has multiple online identities for interacting with the same communities.
• Disappears from communication for days or weeks at a time without explanation.
• Is rude to public servants such as waitresses, cashiers and janitors.
• Never says thank you, excuse me or I am sorry to anyone.

Safe Dating and Correspondence Tips

Before meeting:
• Do not give out personal information to strangers right away. This includes your name, phone number, address, place of work or email addresses you use for other purposes. Set up an email address that you use only for BDSM. There will be a time when you will share your information so they can be safe too. However they do not need the information until preparing for the first meeting.
• Do not send money to your online interest. There are online users that earn a living by faking love and pretending to run into hard times.
• When you do make telephone calls, make sure your phone blocks caller ID or call from a public phone. Do not call collect. Your number will appear on their bill.
• Exchange multiple recent nonsexual photographs to avoid embarrassment and hurt feelings.
• Get a background check before meeting. There are several services that will do this through the Internet.
• Make it clear you are not going to engage in any BDSM activity on the first date.

During the meeting:
• Meet in public places, preferably with a friend. Do not let your date pressure you into going somewhere else even if the date is going fine.
• Try to make your first date a daytime event.
• Drive yourself to and from the meeting place. Relying on them for transportation can put you in an unsafe position.
• Establish a safety net complete with safe calls and details on your date. Tell your safety net your date’s information, where you will be going and what to do in case you do not make your safe calls. Make sure your date knows you have a safety net set up. It is a great deterrent.
• Bring along a cell phone on your date and do not become separated from it.
• Do not drink alcohol on your date or leave your drink unattended.
• Never engage in bondage during your initial BDSM session if you are there alone.
• Do not leave your wallet or purse unattended. Your date may dig through them to find out information you do not want them to know.
• If you are traveling to the meeting, do not let them meet you at the airport or bus station. Use cabs or rental cars for going to and from the public meeting place. Do not stay with them or let them make arrangements for you. Do not let them know where you are staying.

Be aware that safe words, safe calls, contracts, negotiations or gut instincts will NOT fully protect you from a real criminal. Take your time and be sure what you are getting into. Criminals have less patience for difficult targets.

I am a 29 year old male looking for a female I can control.. I want to feel the power of having control of some one. I enjoy the thought of making you do things, asking for permission and you needing my commands.

What I expect
A girl 18-35 who is a 6 or higher. If you have to ask don't then don't waste my time.
Weight between 110-170
Enjoy sex
Enjoy tasks
Trust .. I expect you to trust me I do not lie and I will not lie to you.
Some form of private communication
You to enjoy self pleasure

What you should expect

Random tasks.
Respects of the limits you set
No harm
Privacy
Humility
Pleasure

This is internet only for now. You are not my first and I enjoy girls who are new.. my intentions are simple and clear. I enjoy power I love the feeling of it.. I have no intention other than to have fun between you and I.

Send a short description of your self, what you are into and what you expect. Picture are a plus but not necessary at this time. Other ways to contact you.. I have used snapchat in the past

I confess that we are a mature professional couple who met because of our mutual interest in perverted, nasty sex. Our lives have now taken a path I never considered would happen but am very happy it has. I have always been attracted to women that are sluts and like being fucked by lots of cock. I've shared any woman I've had a relationship with since my early 20's. I have fucked many wives/gf's with and without their hub/bf present as well. When I met my GF several years ago, I quickly learned she was the most sexual woman I've ever met. She is a very horny slut that has regularly fucked new men since she very young.The more she shared with me about her sordid past the more I was attracted to her and fell in love with her.I encouraged her to continue fucking anyone she wanted even if I wasn't there. (which is often due to business travel) The large majority of our swinging was getting her fucked and used by other men, preferably groups of men and especially if they are black. So I pretty much made myself a cuck because nothing turns me on more the seeing the joy the woman I love gets out of being used like nothing but fuckmeat and a cum receptacle for most anyone. The one thing that was always an issue between us was her telling me she no longer could do a lot of the filthiest acts of debauchery without me being there, at least not as often or perverse. Our mutual favorite perversion is my eating her used cumfilled cunt after being fucked. She also LOVED my not having a problem with sucking cocks that were ready to or had just fucked her. She is so turned on watching me lick clean cocks that just dumped a load in her and suck them hard so they could fuck her again. It was much more of a turn on for both of us when I suck big black cocks. Whatever label that gives me I don't care. My sole interest in being a cocksucker is to give her pleasure. I have no attraction to men or their cocks other then to fuck her like she loves. Neither she or I consider me bi as some of the many self proclaimed experts that love dispensing their "wisdom" polluting sexually oriented sites. I certainly am a cocksucker and proud of it. Or should I say a cocksucking cuck like the love of my life loves me to be. Fortunately only of couple of men had to shown that it doesn't mean I am a wimpy, tiny dicked, sissy. Or that because my lady loves being a filthy, no limits cumpig it is an invitation to cause harm or injure her.
Here is where the change in our lives cums in. Whenever I return from out of town I encourage her to show up having been recently fucked and filled by one or preferably several men. And during our passionate sexual reunion have her give me the details. She did it sometimes but always made it like she only did it for me and that she couldn't think about other cocks fucking her the couple of days prior to my return. It has always caused friction as well as suspicion on my part that she had tempered many of her preferences. I just found my suspicions were more true then I could imagine as a result of her confession. Much to her relief I am more turned on then ever. What I didn't know about her is how much it turns her on to cheat and get over. Not only am I a willing cocksucking cock now but I accept that her body is owned by a couple of BBC Dom's who use her anyway they wish and let others do the same. I am a cocksucking cuck who has been eatiing strangers cum out of her just fucked cunt every single time I returned and didn't know it. And sometimes while I was eating their cum, they were watching me. As we speak she is out with her BBC Dom doing filthy depraved acts. And when she returns I will have to clean her and them before I can fuck her myself. For those who are into similar hot nasty fun I am willing to continue as well as share pics. I just hope the open minded perverts outnumber the pathetic moral cyber sluths that abound here.

Hail Lilith the Black Rose, Goddess of Hell full of darkness and lust, blessed be the fruit of shedding in the womb the demons of the abyss and the offspring of Satan and letting the demonic arm reign over this dark world and hell reign over us with darkness.

Lilith tells me that she take back her power. She calls me to stay in my truth, embracing my darkness and my light alike. She tells me to stop playing small and not to be afraid of burning myself too passionately to worry about being misunderstood in the eyes of others. She tells me "Your fire is not for them ... It is for YOU."

I Am Satanist ▲☥▲

While it is said that good and evil do not exist except within the limits of personal preference and perception, I am not limited by moral barriers. I will not harm those who have not sought the destitution of my luck, life, freedom and happiness.

My fellow KLAN members, I swear my loyalty by my blood, and offer you all services under all stipulated rules and regulations. I promise to cherish and defend the vast realms of the underworld and Mother Earth. Because without it, life itself could not exist. May I rise to be wise through experience and trial. so I will be a bearer of light, a source of the Black flame of Knowledge. I will rise to the heights through education, experience, wisdom, and balance. And challenge myself to a greater self-directed achievement that I will be like the dragon that devours weakness and grows strong like the Angel of Light, to know all the secrets of this world.

My actions today will project a reaction and a reflection on the future of tomorrow intangible for everyone. That is why I announce myself as the ruler of my own destiny and I will place the responsibility of enriching my existence on my head. I am a Satanist, the Phoenix Goddess priestess, the goddess of darkness, the highest incarnation of human life.

I, The Priestess Goddess Phoenix, WELCOMES TO HER SATANIC KLAN. ▲☥▲

I had to endure many subway rides were a man's dick was nestled between the cheeks of my fat ass.

On one occasion when I was a teen and was quite plump, and on my way to college, I was abused in a crowded subway. A perv got on the train and probably spotted me and moved in behind me. I had nowhere to go and he had me cornered against the train door. He had sweatpants on that had pockets. He had his hand in his pocket and the pocket lining was cut out so he could access his dick through the pocket (my friend educated me on how they do that). He was obviously jerking off and would stop every few seconds to hump against my ass. He was jerking off with his dick against my ass (his hardon was obvious through the sweatpants). After a few seconds I caught on but couldn't move.
The man had pushed himself harder against me. There was no doubt now that I could feel his erection through the fabric of his sweatpants and my leggings.
I could feel the heat and weight of the man's flesh through the lycra of my leggings. I could definitely feel his hard cock rubbing on my ass and then settling into the crevasse between my butt, rubbing on my leggings.
The crowded train and the doorway offered me nowhere to go. My face turned a bright red as I was forced to accept my predicament. Shamefully I was getting wet. I couldn't help it. But I didn't want to. This wasn't right. This stranger was taking advantage. But what if I just let him...what if I just let him satiate himself against my fat ass? What if I allowed him to that? If he didn't put it inside me there was no harm no foul was there? He might get angry otherwise. He might try and rape...no! He wouldn't surely! Maybe just let him continue to do what he was doing? So-what if I was a little wet and shit scared?
He grew bold as he saw I offered no resistance and placed his left hand on my left ass cheek and humped away against my ass with his dick in between my cheeks and then lowered his sweatpants just slightly and came all over my ass. He rubbed it into my ass with his dickhead and got off at the next stop leaving me molested and with a huge cum stain on my leggings.
On my next stop I had to run to a washroom and wipe his cum from ass using a handkerchief. I did my walk of shame to the college. Anyone paying attention to my ass would know that my ass was cummed on. My entire day was traumatized but moreover I felt guilty for being wet by getting abused and molested.

My therapist said that it's common and a biological response from my body to not get hurt from being assaulted (Although he never penetrated me)
What I didn't tell her was that I went home traumatized and while undressing I saw the thick stain of my juices on my panties and although ashamed and guilty I became wet again. Then strangely out of nowhere I shamefully smelled my leggings, it was a stench of my sweat, my juices and his cum. I inhaled it by pressing my nose into it as I rubbed my clit roughly imagining the traumatizing event of the day. I started moaning and to gag myself I shoved the cum covered handkerchief in my mouth. Drooling and swallowing my saliva with my molesters cum. As if that was not enough I wore my leggings over my head pressing my nose on the places of cum stain and where his cock was. In my mind I was degrading and shaming myself, calling myself a whore, slut, cunt as all the feminism and my dignity was dripping out my cunt. I felt guilt and shame of how I am behaving and how I was wet during the molestation and it made me cum, my legs shaking and my eyes rolling back in my head as my body convolusing violently. My body went limp and after a few minutes I gathered my strength to slowly pull off the leggings above my face and I saw myself in mirror beside my bed. I was naked lying face down, sweaty, handkerchief in my mouth, leggings stuffed over my head. Shame, regret and guilt filled me as I started to see the pictures of my friends and family on my dresser. With tears in my eyes I realized of what I have done and how lowly, Wanton and a filthy whore I am. I was ashamed of the person in mirror who didn't have any dignity, self respect and was lying like a piece of limp fuckmeat. And then I felt the tingle in my stupid cunt again and I started rubbing again feeling the mix of regret, shame, humiliation as I saw the stupid fuckmeat in the mirror along with my friends and family pictures. Gagging on the handkerchief I called her disgusting names as my reflection came like a bitch. Shamefully again I covered my face in leggings and I rubbed my shame on my molested leggings.
That night I came 2 more times while degrading and abusing my cunt as moved from awake and sleep states. The next morning I woke up with tired body, sore mouth, sore cunt and reeking of the stench of my juices, sweat and his cum.

I am a 66 year old man that had never touched any illegal drug my entire life. That is until 4 months after my 64th birthday. i had been planning my escape from my world into the bad world of drugs for years and had studied all the information I could find. I wanted the baddest of the bad that gave the best high you can get using the most harmful method to get high. There really was only one choice. I was retiring and while the people that I worked planned and gave me a nice party I was putting my own parT together. When the big night arrived everything was ready and except for a couple people that helped me get what I needed and a nurse my home was empty. I sat quietly quietly watching them make up what they told me were rigs. Not a big amount of the white crystals went into each syringe (point as i found out later)then they finished up by adding close to the same amount of warm warm water to the point and shook it hard until it was nearly clear with a touch of cloudiness. Next they asked for the 20th time if I was sure I wanted to go through with this and was I aware of the risks were and i said in a shaky voice yes it was going to happen no matter how many times they asked and to please do it already. Then they put a tourniquet on one arm i don't remember which and the nurse started tapping around looking for the best vein she could find next i felt the sharpness of the needle as it entered. I knew at that split second my life would never be the same and I may have stepped into a black hole never to return. I watched intently as blood  came up into the point and the nurse slowly pushed the plunger down. She asked several times if there was any pain and i said no. The first thing I noticed was a slight taste of metal in my mouth then I could feel an intense pleasure rush through my veins  I could literally feel the meth flow through my veins. It was the most intense pleasure I had ever had in my life, I realized at that split second Tina was going to be my master and mistress for the rest of my years, my one and only true love. The first rush lasted for a bit more than 7 minutes. I have had longer more intense and shorter less intense but I have never had a terrible rush. I damn near killed  my self the first eight months I used. Months of slamming to soon or to much or not keeping myself hydrated and too big of slamm when no one was with me. After using hard for 8 months and ending up in the hospital. I realized something was going to have to change or I wouldn't live long enough to enjoy slamming Meth to really make it worth my while. I quit cold turkey in one day and for the next 9 months I was sober. it was all part of my plan because there was no way I was going to give up my lover Tina (meth), While I was sober I had a time lock safe installed and set it to open every Friday evening and let Tina out. I have never regretted letting Tina into my life and never look back

does anyone have some self harm videos? Thx!!

I'm a therapist and I council mostly teens. I've seen a fair number of little hotties over the years and I often can't help myself tuning them out and just staring at them, particularly when they're wearing low cut shirts or mini skirts or shorts.
Here's my favorite girl at the moment, she's Felicia, she's 15 and she's coming to me because her parents think she has a drinking/drug problem, and I've also discovered she self-harms.

What do you pervs think?