Hey All,
I've been reading the confession pages here for a few months now after a friend gave me the link..
I've my own confession..
I'm an 18 year old girl.
Pansexual if it makes any diffrence.
Over the past year I've gotten really in to humiliation. degredation and some play rape. I jkeep imagining scenes with my bf or other people in my head, makes me so horny but even though my bf is in to bdms I'm kinda scared to talk to him about it incase he's too hard core for it.
Instead I've been going to random sex chatrooms and finding strangers to tell me what to do on web cam...
So this is the senario thats been in my head non stop lately.
My boyfriend is mad at me, for some reason or another, maybe I haven't been putting out enough lately. So, we're arguing and sudenly he hits me and not a playful slap, he hits me hard in the face. I'm kinda turned on by it but I get mad anyways and start shouting. He hits me again and tells me I'm nothing and a whore won't talk to him like that. I ask how the fuck I'm a whore and he rips off my top, I try to put it on but he hits me again and tells me not to move...
I'm scared now, so I don't as he takes the rest of my cloths off. The blinds are open in our apparment and the neighbours across the way could see in if they wanted, he catches me looking and laughs at me telling me that the whole world is gonna see what a little slut I am.
He doesn't do anything for a while, just stares at my naked body. I'm still to scared to move, but eventualy ask what the fuck he's doing. He tells me to shut up and just rub my clit. I oblige.. embarsed though. He tells me to finger my ass and I refuse.. He grabs a kife, a large on, slams me down on the table so I'm bent over, ass on display. First he slaps my ass cheek with the side of the knife, it stings. Then, without warning or lubrication, holding my back down with his arm, he begins to shove the knife handle in my ass. The handle is stainless steal, really cold. I yell from the shock of it and I struggle. He tells me if I keep pissing him off he'll slit my throat. I start to cry, terrified. He takes it out and not gentely. He turns me over and spits in my face and tells me I'm a filthy fucking slut. Hits me a few more times. I'm still crying. He looks proud of himself as he leads me to the long clear window and presses me against it. I feel so exposed. I don't see anyone watching but I can't be sure. Again, he waits a while befor he moves on.
He grabs me by the throat as he leads me to the bathroom. I think he's going to make me shower in front of him and I'm right. He tells me to wash the filth off of myself. When I finish he tells me to kneel down in the shower, I do what he says, at this point I'm terrified.. broken.
He opens his ziper and takes out his cock. Then proceeds to piss all over me, I'm shocked and he can tell. He pisses all over me, in my hair, on my face, my tits.. He even aims for my pussy. He says, I told you that you were filthy.
He walks out leaving me alone in the shower to cry.
That's all I have so far.. can anyone help add things to this? I'd love to develop the fantasy.
