When I was 19 years old and in college in Florida, I got really heavy into drugs. Mainly party drugs like coke and ecstasy, and of course plenty of weed, but on occasion other drugs as well. I was out of control and living one big party life on my parent's dime while they struggled mightily to pay for me to have the opportunity they never had and go to college. Looking back I feel like a total asshole about it now as they wanted nothing more than for me to be successful and not have to struggle...sorry, I digressed.

Anyway, since I had no money and wanted to keep up my partying lifestyle and since I was always very athletic, in shape and considered "good-looking", through one of the people I met in the party scene I ended up doing some modeling to make some extra money. Pretty low rent stuff, nothing glamorous, but a couple hundred bucks a week.

This quickly evolved into the opportunity to do some "videos". It started with just masturbation videos of me lying in bed, or on a couch or in the shower jerking off. I figured I was going to do it anyway so why not get paid for it and I was getting paid $100-200 per day that I did a shoot. I could sometimes do 3 or 4 scenes in a day. The guy running the operation said he was impressed by my "re-load" ability and also that I had just the right cock for it...I'm about 8 inches, decently thick and my dick looks perfectly formed from shaft to head and can blow pretty big loads even after only a little break in between. I knew that these were primarily for gay guys to watch but I didn't care. If someone gets off from seeing me, so fucking what. I did these for a while and then he asked one day if I'd want to do some full sex movies and photo shoots and showed me some of his portfolio and all things considered the chicks looked pretty hot and we were now talking more like $300-500 per day so I jumped right at the chance.

It was a crazy scene and pretty much everything you wanted was at your fingertips. Women and drugs galore. Parties every night after shooting. We were all in the 18-22 age bracket so it was just a no responsibility show. But as quickly as I made money it went back out the door on drugs and partying. Then one night when we were partying at the main house this director used for shooting videos, him and a couple of the other "big wigs" in their operation asked me if I would be willing to do some more hardcore shit. At first I was thinking they meant bondage, s&m type stuff, but they quickly made it clear they were talking gay action. I immediately said not a chance, I was straight and no way I could do it. They pushed the matter (and a coffee table with a big pile of blow on it) and said that all the actors in their gay shoots are straight guys because that is the look they wanted in their videos, strong masculine men, not femboys. The guys just do "gay for pay" and they also said I could make up to a $1000 per shoot depending on the circumstances. At that point my eyes lit up and I think they knew they had me. I asked them more questions and they said I could be strictly a top and receive blow jobs, that I didn't have to get fucked or suck or kiss anyone if I didn't want to. I could also do bi scenes where a female actress or two would be involved. I said, what the fuck, let's give it a try.

The next week they had scheduled me in for my first scene. I was shaking like a leaf prior to which was totally not like me. In the other stuff I had already done I was totally calm and had no issues getting naked, getting hard and fucking in front of other people. It was a one on one scene with me and another guy. I was going to be swimming naked in the pool and then get out and immediately go to the lounge chair next to the pool when the "pool guy" was going to show up to service the pool and eventually me who was masturbating while watching him clean the pool. I actually was having a difficult time getting hard which was totally not the norm for me, but he came over and began blowing me for a while and soon enough I did get fully hard. I had sunglasses on and just kept my eyes closed and picturing hot women. I put on a condom and ended up fucking him in a few different positions and then to my surprise he end up blowing his load on my chest as he was riding me, then slid off my cock, dropped back down and sucked me to completion taking my load all over his face.

I said afterward that it wasn't that bad, but I didn't think I wanted to do it again...until I got my next offer and more cash. It went on like this for a while and me just doing the fucking and getting sucked. I still was primarily doing straight shoots though. Then the director came to me with a proposal for a scene. It would be me and this girl I had done some straight scenes with and we would be a "married" couple and then another guy who was coming to our house to do some repairs. But he wanted it to be a scene where me and her completely serviced this guy. We all were going to suck and fuck each other, no holds barred type stuff. I was extremely hesitant but he offered up my biggest payday yet and it was a good chunk of money for 4-5 hours of total "work". I was so far gone into the scene at that time that I agreed and said let's do this.

The day came and again I was nervous. I did all my usual prep on my "manscaping" and where I normally do everything I can to keep myself fresh down below, this time I added the step of the diet one of the other male actors recommended and his full enema routine to completely clean me out. The worst thing on a porn set when anal is involved is having a shit accident. It came time for the scene and we were in the bedroom on a king size bed where I was fucking the girl for a while then the "repair" man came in, he joined in with me "thinking" he was just going to play jointly with my wife but then he starts licking my balls and ass and pulling out my cock from the wife's pussy and sucking on it. We go through some more motions and she is sucking him then she tells me she wants to see me suck him and this is it, the moment I took a cock in my mouth. I did what I had to do and then after he fucks her it was my turn to take his cock. I was laying on my back as she sat on my face and then he started fucking my ass. Hurt like hell but I had to put up a good front. He even made a comment that got into the video about how tight my ass was. Anyway, we finished the scene after everyone had been fucked and sucked and I went out that night with some of the other people from set and we got destroyed on drugs and booze. I was fucked up beyond belief and when I got home that night I said that was it, I was done. Absolutely no more of all of it. The drugs the porn, nothing. The next day I called up the director and said to pull me from the stuff he had me scheduled for the next week. He tried to convince me and told me what a fucking amazing job I had done the day before, but I told him I had to get out. I couldn't handle the life and really was regretting all of it. I pulled the plug that day and never looked back.

So, somehow through all of this I didn't flunk out of school. I ended up completing my degree and living out a pretty mundane, boring college life and working a bullshit part-time job in one of the offices on campus answering phones and shit. Really nobody in my "normal" life had any clue about what I had done. My parents were none the wiser about anything I did partying or whatever and were proud as could be the day they saw me get my degree. I started a job with a top consulting firm and in the decade plus since, have worked hard and progressed so much in my career that I look at the "crazy" money I was making from porn and laugh at how little it is compared to now. I am engaged to a very attractive and smart girl who is an attorney and makes plenty of money herself, but also has no clue about my prior life.

I guess my biggest fear is that one day I am going to come on here and see one of my videos front and center. I know they are out there in various places on the web, but they obviously weren't under my real name and the look I had back then was very different than it is now where I am clean cut hair, have a beard, and even back then in a bunch of the scenes I had bleached blonde hair for a while and a deep Floridian tan. I guess my real name and SSN is on file with the porn company somewhere so that could somehow get out, but generally speaking I got away free and clear without any repercussions. Crazy the journey our lives take.

I used to work retail at a very well known tech store in my mid20s. I was the go-to-guy for all problems customers had. It was a very conservative part of the state where even the hint of possibly being gay was enough for someone to get fired. I needed the job.

We had one customer who was an older man, near his 70s, who was fun to joke around with and shoot the shit. He'd tell some dirty jokes now and again and we'd laugh.

Time went on and I ended up going to his house to perform tech related duties for cash outside of work. Most of the time it was nothing big but every now and again he'd screw something up and I'd get a good payday. He'd tell his friends about me and get me some extra cash for working on their stuff.

One day I was at one of his friend's houses, an older man too (mid60s), working on the guy's computer. The guy had made some innuendo about wanting head, etc. I brushed him off like I usually did as although I'm bi I wasn't into older guys.

After a bit of silence I turned around to tell him something and he was standing there, not more than six inches away from my face, with his old hard cock in his hand. He offered me extra to suck him off, I said no. He said he wasn't going to take no for an answer and we could do it the hard way or the easy way. I tried to talk my way out of it for a minute or two but he grabbed my head and shoved his cock in my mouth. It was such perfect timing on his part I was sure he'd done it before.

As I struggled he locked his hands behind my head and started roughly fucking my mouth, his old hard cock moving in and out at a hurried pace, getting deeper with each thrust. When he had enough in my mouth to make him happy he held me on it as I gagged. I was slapping my hands on his thighs, trying to tell him I couldn't breath, but he held it longer until finally letting go and pulling his cock out. Spit and a bit of blood were on his cock as he pulled it out.

I coughed, spat on the floor and wiped the tears from my eyes that had come naturally. I put a hand up telling him to hold on as I caught my breath but it didn't mean anything to him as he again put his hands on my head and tried forcing his cock in my mouth. I got a hand around it and started stroking it, holding him off long enough to tell him I'd suck him off. He removed his hands, looked at me, at his cock, and made a face of, "well, what are you waiting for?"

I stroked his cock a bit more as I prepared myself then gave him a messy blowjob. After a few minutes he told me to stop and strip so he could watch me play with myself as I sucked him. I complied.

I sucked him for another five minutes or so (fucker wouldn't cum) before he pulled his cock away. It was slimy with my spit. My mouth hurt and my lips were beginning to swell. He told me that because he had to fight for a blowjob that I owed him a piece of ass. At this point I just wanted it over with, but I said nothing. He told me to bend over a large desk he had in the room. I did so and not a minute later his cock was in my ass pounding away like it was the first time he'd ever fucked. He kept at it for at least fifteen minutes, barely ever slowing down, calling me all sorts of things.

I felt a spurt of something in my ass and realized the guy was cumming, and that he'd gone in raw. He shot his load deep inside me, held himself there for a moment, then pulled out. He grabbed some tissue, wiped himself off, told me to get dressed and leave. He gave me the money for the service call, a little extra thrown in for the "extra service", and I left.

I thought about reporting it as it was most definitely rape but I came to terms with it. I told the 70 year old guy that I wasn't going back to the mid60s guy's house. He asked why, I said I had my reasons, and that was that.

About a month and a half later the 70 year old called me and said he had messed something up on his machine, asked if I could come over. I went over later that night, fixed his machine, and we sat bullshitting. I went to go to the bathroom and he said he was going to pop a movie in. I went in, did my business, then came back out.

The 70 year old was sitting on the couch, naked, stroking himself. On the TV was me, getting pounded from behind by his mid60s friend. The 70 year old said that he wanted the same service as his friend. I was pissed and yelled and screamed and let out a barrage of language about how the mid60s guy had recorded that. The 70 year old told me that they'd planned it for months and that if I didn't do what they said they'd make sure the video got around, ruining my life. He also made note of the extra cash I had taken and said they'd turn me in for prostitution.

I plopped down on the couch and asked what he wanted. He said all I had to do was whatever they said until they were bored.

I agreed.

The 70 year old wanted to replay what was going on in the video so I sucked his cock for a bit before getting on my hands and knees on his floor. He fucked my ass from behind as he made me watch the video. He came in my ass and told me that he'd call.

For the next year and a half I sucked and fucked him, his mid60s friend, and quite a few of their friends. They passed me around and turned me out to anyone they felt like, always recording it all and always raw. They were having a BBQ? I was in the back bedroom, on a mattress, ready to be used by anyone that was there at any time and they did so. They'd have parties where I would spend the time moving from one to the next sucking their cocks. They'd take turns, gang up on me, everything. They used and abused me how they saw fit.

I hated it for the longest time. I hated that they had power over me, that they raped me repeatedly, that they were able to use me whenever they wanted. Eventually I grew to anticipate it, then to look forward to it, to finally enjoying it completely. They had turned me into a male cockslut that enjoys old man cock.

To this day, even though they're almost all dead now and I've moved far away, I jerk off about it all and will gladly bend over for any old cock that asks. They may have started with an unwilling participant but ended up turning me into someone that begs for old cock.

I couldn't be happier.

I confess i have full blown AIDS.Got maybe a year to go. But it aint stopped me FUCKING NIGGER HO'S BAREBACK. I like to pick up ho's that will do anything and i give em an extra 10 bucks for bareback..ha ha..Then thats em infected with my poisonous cum! I also like to hit bitches too. BAM! TAKE THAT YOU 9/11 SURVIVING SLUT! I also like to fuck gay gus even though im not gay! But i love the fact that im gonna shoot my infectious cum in their ass!! I like to take their cell phone numbers too. And months after the eveny i will randomly phone em and say I GAVE YOU AIDS!! HA HA!!
This infection is the best GIFT ever. Ive lived my life im well over 50 but i still keep in shape. Nobody suspects im infected..but i have AIDS. I like to give it to as many whores as i can. Also when they are passed out on drugs i like to SHIT ON THEIR FACES and just leave em handcuffed to a shitty motel bed. This is the best and most fun.I take back and cash i gave the bitches too ofcourse (and their other money) With faggots well, ive done some awesome stuff. I ve left guys tied up and covered in my shit and piss. Then taken photos on their cell phone and sent it to all their phone contacts too. ha ha!! I am having fun before this AIDS takes me to hell.
Tonight i will pick up maybe 2 nigger ho's downtown and when ive drugged em enough cover em in each others hit. I give em laxatives and sleeping pills.
Maybe ill post some pics on here. But i prefere to post stuff to people who know em.

Gonna go now and drive around with my paintball gun shooting it at homeless fuckers to scar the shit out of em!

I confess that I've been a gigolo ever since I separated from my wife. I've been hustling women for almost 4 months and so far I have 8 regulars that do everything from gas up my truck to pay my bills. I literally sit at home all day answering texts to these girls and send them pictures of me posing in the mirror.

Recently I met a girl that I was instantly attracted to. She is smoking ass hot. I admit I dropped my game to chase after a regular relationship with her but I got stuck in the friendzone. After that I let her in on my secret life and that turned her on like fire.

We've teamed up and turns out she's a hustler. She has dudes chasing after her all over the place and she won't let them touch it. She bats her eyes and gets what she wants (She's ridiculously hot). The fact I'm an adult entertainer on the weekends (think magic mike) and that I'm nailing lawyers and dentists (all female, no gay) for their money drives her wild.

Last night she gave me a lap dance while she was on the phone with her boyfriend and we laughed about him. She left to go run a hustle and I went to another bar to do the same. We met up at the end of the night and she came home with me. We laughed naked and rolled around in the cash on my bed (it was only 300-400 dollars but it was the thought that counted). We've teamed up to run the shit out of these ducks and things have never been so exciting. She's 10 years younger than me. She hasn't gotten anything off me yet as far as money but I have off her. We have the weirdest and hottest relationship. I love being a hustler.

january 20 is a day i will never forget.

it was 2006. i was backpacking in europe. i had just arrive in england and stopped in manchester. i unloaded all my crap at the hostel and went to a random pub to spend the evening and take it easy with the locals.

went to this place that seemed cool from the outside. an old school style english pub. exactly what i wanted. had a few pints, chatted with some friendly guys and girls. but there were a lot more guys as you would see in most bars.

had a great time and a few hours and pints later got a little sloppy. at the end of the night i got invited back to a flat and hang out. so i went. we were 2 guys and a girl. had a good time and then the girl left.

the guy asked me if i realized i went to a gay/lesbian bar. i had no idea. it was 2006. not like today where a bunch of drag queens and rainbow flags would be the dead giveaway. i said i didnt know and that i was straight but didn't care because i had a great time and met great people.

this dude literally pulls out his wallet and offers me 150 quid to watch me shower and stroke me. i laughed it off as a joke and he offers me 50 more to finish on him. then he smiles and tells me this is his kink and the more i do the more he pays.

i laugh and tell him to show me the money up front. he goes to another room and comes back with a wad of cash. i was pretty drunk, adventurous, and young. so i went for it

he showered me and massaged me. put me on his bed and bent me over. he licked my asshole for the first time ever. he then got on his bed and started jerking off. i sat on his face and he went to town with his tongue on my balls and asshole. i slapped my cock on his body at his request and blew a load on his chest. i then watched him cum on my cum and scoop it to his mouth. it was fucking gross and gagged. he laughed.

i showered again, had regrets in the shower. when i got out of there my pocket was heavier.
fast forward to today. i have a wife and kids and nobody knows about this. never had another gay experience. life before smart phones and social media like today was so good with anonymity.

So I'm struggling internally. I recently went to my local sex shop and purchased a 7 inch dildo for anal masturbation. I'm a 19 year old straight male. I think. I bought it in cash, hid my car behind the store so no passerby would see it, then rushed home, lubed myself up and rode it in my bathroom for hours. It was one of the most amazing sexual experiences ever. I felt it so far up my ass I couldn't help but moan. I don't know what came over me but I threw all thoughts of females out of the window. I began to wish the dildo was real, I wanted a man to be fucking me, kissing me, holding me. I took it one step further. I threw my legs over my head and while putting the dildo 7 inches deep in my ass, I blew my GIGANTIC load in my mouth and all over my face. It was so liberating I felt amazing. However, I stood up and looked at myself in the mirror, cum caked all over me, and thought "what have I done?" I showered, put the dildo in a brown bag, and threw it in a dumpster close to my house in shame. Am I gay? Or bi? Maybe I just like anal stimulation, because I love fucking my girlfriend's warm soaking pussy. I just don't know. Again, it's a struggle.

unlike most of these posts on her im real my posts are real i dont need to find girls pictures off the net i dont know and post stupid shit about wanting to fuck them or them being my girlfriend ,i dont do sick shit ,like scatting around or stupid shit like take a chicks panties n shit ,where i come from that a sex crime n gets you full of holes fast ,but i do want to say that if you cant even post real stuff if you need to copy someones picture n claim its yours ,we need to talk cuz that just retarded shit almost all the ladies know who pictures you post and the same chicks in the google search so your only fooling yourself and making the ladies thing your fucking crazy like a ax killer or something plus lies are a big turnoff , almost half the profiles are men trying to hook a guy in to a gay interlude i have rarely met a real woman here beyond cam for cash but a site needs to be made where you can have live chats on cam where you can see the sexuality of that person just saying though

So the first time I did sex for cash was via CL after turning 18, some soldiers from Fort Hood who put up an ad saying they'd pay to gangbang anything as long as he or she was clean. It was rough but not scary, they were funny guys and so it was good money.

I had a gay friend who needed cash and gave him their number and they just massacred the guy. He didn't pick his phone for a day afterwards and asked me to drive him to the doctor. Apparently they double-dicked him, went ass-to-mouth ("You never go ass to mouth!"), and generally made him miserable. But they did pay him.

This friend is the holy grail to me cause he's gay but is so gorgeous and we've known each other since junior high. He looks like he should be fronting the best emo band ever. He got tatts the moment he turned 18 and it was so hot.

TL;DR. My confession is that I've jilled off like a dozen times thinking about it.