19 yr old girl. Crazy mind/on the edge what to do with life.
I had a shitty unlucky life with parents and brothers. I then met a man and lived with him for awhile, he then decided he wanted me to be his punching bag so i had to run away, all i did was tell him i couldnt take the relationship and had to leave and he didnt care.

My friends are all poor and i couldnt really live with any of them. I feel so hopeless. One of my friends gave me 200 dollars and couldnt do anything else. My family hates me and disowned me because i left with a black man. Thats a whole other story.

Anyway i went to a cheap condo place to see if i could stay there until i get a job and back on my feet, i talked with the man in charge and he was nice at 1st. He cooked me dinner, told me personal things about his life and bad luck with women. He said i reminded him of 1 of his daughters who was on her own. He told me he will let me stay with him in his place he had extra rooms until i got a job and he will let me go a few months in rent... being very late. I was very happy and gave him a big hug and thankyou.

So i got settled into his place and it was fine the 1st 2 days, he was kind and everything. Then one morning i wokeup and i heard drilling, and it was behind my mirror in my bathroom and he told me he wanted to watch me. Then he went to shower and showed me there was a camera there. I was weirded out and he told me he wanted to keep it and its"the least i can do" i nodded my head and agreed. I didnt think itd be a big deal if he can just watch and i leave in a month anyway.

Then at dinner he invited me and we were eating salad and he said "Ashley theres something we need to chat about" I said "what" and he went on saying"if it wasnt for me you would be homeless.. i think you are very pretty... i love your figure... .i want you to be my live in girlfriend and bring me food and ill take care of you. I want you to just be my sucktoy and anal btich when i want.I am a man and i have needs and i want you to fullfill them" At 1st i said i wasnt a prostitute and he told me that he didnt care and the world is tough and if im gonna stay at his place i need to earn it. I told him ill think about it and he assured me he will boot me out by morning if i didnt have an answer. So in the middle of the night i wokeup... and gave it some thought and thought i had no choice and would try it. Is this bad of me? He seemed so nice, why cant he just be anice man, i wouldve offered myself to him thru time anyway for a reward.

I feel cheap/dirty and used, im normally not a slut but he wants me to be one.
he came to my room in the morning sat down on my chair and dropped his pants and said"you have 2 minutes to start sucking or your gone NOW" I cried and he rubbed my face and told me itd be ok. He told me he liekd it rough and wanted it from me and appreciated me. He facefucked me for half an hr and then cummed on my face and pushed me away and told me he'd fuck my ass later which he did. He wants 3-4 blowjobs a day and they get messy. I feel horrible and feel theres no escape! I have nowhereto go, or i can just keep letting this man brutally throatfuck me everyday and be ok with it?

Hey- just gonna post whats going on with me and my neighbor. I post, in looking for advice on how to take it to next step maybe, ideas and what to say.

About a week ago, i was talking with her and told her i was depressed and we were just chatting, and us each being single i took her up on her offer at end of the night when she said"well, how about i do something that will make you feel ALOT better" im like"gladly go on!" she then proceeded to give me 1 of the best blowjobs of my life, was amazing, she like kept it in her mouth for 15 minutes straight, when she got tired she just held it on the head for a few seconds then with full force did full up and down thrusts with her mouth. It was just pure heaven. So i obviously enjoyed myself and thanked her and she went on to her house and that was it.

Then, 2 nights ago she came over again to just to see how i was doing and offered to cook me up some steak. I of course say sure. WE chatted about life in general, parties, gambling and $$$$ situations and boyfriend/girlfriend problems. I learned from chatting with her shes in debt pretty bad and she had bad luck finding boyfriends and i can honestly say shes just an awesome girl all around, easy to chat to and all and fun to be around. Me personally, im just lonely alot because the majority of my real friends moved on to college when i chose i didnt wanna go and gamble for a living on a poker game(its skill game thats a whole other arguement for doubters on that, thats not important) so i basically got gambling buddies who i go to casino with all the time. I am well off with $$$ because im real smart and good at what i do. So i look at this girl Sara(my neighbor) and get ideas of turning this into a boyfriend/girlfriend thing and i need ideas how to make this happen?I think i kind of blew it tho by degrading her, i will explain what we did 3 nights ago and i think it hurt my chances at being her legit boyfriend, i dunno if its too late though.

At the end of dinner we were just playing yahtzee and chatting about the goods and bads of my life and when she asked me what was something i want that i dont got i told her the truth my main thing. I told her"to be honest its just a girl to be there for me when i need her im a man is that so bad to say?" I only said this because she was honest to me about alot of personal things. Any single guy out here surely knows how fuckng frusterating it is to look at hot girls online and real life and then settling to just jerkoff and not get your dick sucked right? So anyway at the end of the night when we were saying our goodbyes she turned around to leave and im like"Sara?" she turned around and i walked up to her and said"you knnow, what you did to me the other night felt amazing and i just want you to know that (then i smiled) I said it JUST like that so she gets the point ya know. She then sat me down and said"listen, as you know i care about you- you are a sweet man, and i just felt horrible for you and wanted to make you happy!!!! also, giving blowjobs the way i do, makes me all messy and unable to go out without showering and re doing my hair" She told me"its a project" "its hard to do right" I agreed with her and she told me"ill do it whenever im going right to bed or right home, but not tonight because i have to go to the gas station and buy some things for a friend and see her" She then gave me a kiss on cheek and walked off. As she was walking off i said"Sara?" she walked back over and i said"i really reaaallly can use your help tonight" What can i say, im a gambler and tried asking again(is this bad?)

She sat back down on my couch and said"ok well if im going out of my way, you will have to make it worth my while!! and i dont want you thinking im a hooker or anything, its just im doing you this favor and its really going to inconveinence me" So i said fine, and then we started negotiating prices and i was like"some girls charge 100 150 an hour but thats full sex and im not getting that!" She was only willing to give me a rough blowjob/sensual one, however i liked i(facials allowed/dirty talk/ whtever i wanted).She went on to tell me she had friends of hers that gave head for 20 bucks 40 bucks and she thought that was standard, but extra and more"fun bjs" should be more sometimes! WE couldnt really agree on a price and then she looked across the room at the bingo game/machine that i had in my closet. She pulled it out and said"we can use this" Im like, "hmm now thats interesting" She then took out the machine part and said"looks like we have 75 balls here each with a # on them, we jiggle it around and take 1 ball out and whatever it says on it is the dollar amount you give me?" So i looked and said to her"yeah thats cool but you realise the most you can get is $75, and there is a chance you pull a 1 or a 2 and you will only get 1 or 2 dollars. She giggled and said yeah and saying it would be fun. So that was our agreement. So we jiggled the balls around in circles for 30 seconds and then randomly drew a ball and the ball said G51. That means i give her $51 and i get my blowjob. She said"mmm $51 is alot of money im gonna suck you good now, ill be extra good and suck your balls mmm then rubbed my body" So that is what happened, and boy did i throatfuck her well, i never seen a girl other than some porno girls take it like she can, was incredible. After it was over she left. I later called her house and left a message on her answering machine just letting her know i was happy we had a nice time and ANYTIME, literally ANYTIME she wanted to "play bingo" again she can just knock on my door, multiple times a day it didnt matter.

Then last night was a little more complicated(at 1st she skipped a day and i was nervous thinking she wouldnt drop by, not till last night though when she did) ANyway heres what happened. She showed up at 6pm and smiled so i knew what was going on so I just grabbed the bingo game and told her to jiggle and draw a ball and lets get started, she drew I16, she puffed and said"figures, i need 60 more for this or someones gonna be really upset at me" Im like"whatever we have a deal here, now do you want the $16 or not?" She said yes and then told me to unbuckle pants. Again i had the time of my life and this time i was frusterated when i was about to cum and shes like"DONT CUM ON MY FACE" JUST as i was about to cum. so im like"fuck fuck" and just blast on her tits. I was upset, told her its rude to do that, shes like"for 16 bucks im not gonna do that" Im like"listen it coulda been $75 easily, we played fair and square honny" She said she knew and then said sorry and it wouldnt happen again. She then left, and i went to go play some games online and chat with friends.

So then its 11:15 at night and my door knocks and its Sara, she says"do you want to play bingo?" im like lol sure and we go to my bedroom to the machine and she draws a B3, and i smile thinking its funny but she breaks down in tears saying things like"this is horrible, i did a nice thing and now my greed of wanting $$ is making me do this and im drawing bad luck, what am i going do do with 3 dollars?" pout pout pout, wah wah. I then say"listen you know our agreement Sara- if you ever not want to go thru with it, i wont force you it will just be the end of us completely. I gave her 5 min or so to collect herself, she was crying and then she was like"wow i cant beleive im blowing you for 3 dollars!" I told her to think longterm and how shes just satisfying me and its fun and its a nice thing to do with someone.. So as i was laying down receiving the BJ i started talking dirty saying things like"u like that dont ya bitch, suck on it tell me how much of a whore you are" she responded by licking and telling me she loves cock, and just trying to get me off. I then say"SUCK MY DICK LIKE THE 3 DOLLAR WHORE YOU ARE DO IT GOOD BITCH PROVE THIS IS WHY YOU'RE ON THE EARTH! TO SERVE MEN NOW EARN YOUR FUCKING MONEY!" She stopped and started to cry again and told me she couldnt handle knowing shes sucking me off for such a small amount of $$$. She said its hard for her to do, and i noticed the shitty job she did compared to the time she did it for free then the $51 time. I then told her to do it right and then go home for the night, she proceeded to finish me off and then left.

So now today is today and i got a text from her asking if she can come over after she comes home from the mall, and i told her"only if you are happy i want you to stop by" She replied with"i just dont like drawing low # because its too degrading but drawing a bigger # she feels like its a job and fun and worth it. I know this girls got a good heart i really know she does shes just stressing for $$$. I told her"come over, i want to enjoy myself fully with no interruptions and putting a change to the rules tell you when you get here" IT is now almost 330 pm here and she'll be here around 7. When she comes im going to demand her to"blow me the best she can and THEN you draw the ball and find out what you're going to get, that way you cant be upset upfront" She will findout AFTER the blowjob after its done. I think thats fair.

I will report back here when we're done tonight, im also going to try to push it a little bit and try to get her to be my girlfriend, but how should i go about it? or did i allready blow it by this game thingy? Also- i want to get pics/vids of this shit to post here, how can i talk her into that?How can i talk her into letting me fuck her in her tight ass? What ya guys think? I kinda wish i just gave her $$ and not ask for shit and she'll blow me out of sympathy like she did at first, i dunno, i kinda like the desperation shit, turns me on and having her come to me, ya know?
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just found this in an old usenet archive i once downloaded.... good advice

ERIN'S BLOWJOB ADVICE FOR GOOD SLUTS

There is a lot of bad information about how to give a good blowjob on the internet. I have written this guide to help girls understand how they can be much better at doing what they are supposed to do. I am hereby releasing this text into the public domain so all sluts can read it.

I am calling you sluts because that is the first thing you have to understand. If you want to do what you are meant to do then you can't think of yourself as girlfriend, wife, lover. When a man looks down at you and sees you with a cock in your mouth, he sees a slut. You are a slut.

WHAT'S THE PURPOSE OF A BLOWJOB

Don't listen to advice that tells you blowjobs are intimate or loving. Blowjobs are not even about physical pleasure. Fucking your mouth feels good for a man but so does fucking your other holes. The reason men like to fuck your face is the same reason they like to fuck your ass: because it degrades you. When a man makes you gag on his cock, it's not an accident. He wants you to suffer. A man does not cum in your mouth because it feels good. Cumming feels the same everywhere. He cums in your mouth because he wants you to taste his cum. Men like to watch women gag on dildos. The dildo doesn't feel anything. Men just like to see women humiliated. That's also why they like to cum on a woman's face. To mark her as a slut.

Do you understand that? That's you.

THE FIRST RULE OF BLOWJOBS: DON'T COMPLAIN

Don't complain if deepthroating his cock makes you gag. Don't complain if he cums in your mouth. Don't complain if he cums on your face. Don't complain if he slaps you. Don't complain if you don't like the taste of his cock. Don't complain if he fucks your throat so hard that you vomit. Don't complain if you can't breathe. Don't complain if he doesn't stop when you want him to.

Remember: if you feel like crying, you're doing it right.

THE BASICS

You're here to get fucked. That means his cock will go into your throat, not just your mouth. You have three important holes: your mouth, your pussy and your asshole. Your mouth shouldn't get fucked less deeply than the other two.

You're not here just to lick his cock. The reason you may have to lick his cock is so that you can get its taste in your mouth. If a man asks you to lick his cock, he wants you to really fill your mouth with the taste of penis so that you know you're a slut. But that's just a detail. You're here to get facefucked.

Getting facefucked can be active or passive. Either he fucks your throat with his cock, his fingers or a dildo. Or you do it yourself. In both cases you have no control. You don't set the rhythm. You don't take breaks unless told to. You never use your hands unless he says so. You just open your mouth and take his cock as deep as it goes. Not "as deep as you can"! Your lower lip should touch his balls. If he holds you down, don't struggle. Remember: you're a slut. He knows you don't like it. That's why he's doing it.

HOW TO SWALLOW

If he cums in your mouth, you will always swallow his cum. The only reason you would ever spit out some cum is if he tells you to, for example if you're supposed to wear it on your tits or spit it into the mouth of another girl.

You should never take cum down the back of your throat. If you do that, you won't taste it. Always draw back enough to let him cum into the front of your mouth, onto your tongue. He wants you to know that taste. He wants you to know what you've done. You've taken a man's semen into your mouth like a whore. He may ask you to show him his cum on your tongue, to remind you of your position. Never swallow immediately.

THE SECOND RULE OF BLOWJOBS: MOST CUM BELONGS IN YOUR MOUTH

Sometimes a man will cum on other parts of your body, such as your face, your tits, your pussy or your ass. He may take a photo of you in this humiliated position. Two things may now happen: you will have to keep the cum where it is, or you will eat it. Wiping it off is not an option. Don't even think about it. If he doesn't tell you to walk around for the rest of the day with cum on you, then as soon as he is satisfied with seeing you like this, you will take the cum with your hands and put it in your mouth. If you have large enough breasts, lick the cum off them with your tongue. Even after that, do not wash yourself or rinse your mouth unless he tells you to. A good blowjob can continue to humiliate you with the smell and taste for hours. He may fuck your throat again multiple times until you are a complete mess, or send you out of the house to humiliate you in public. This is part of what it means to be a woman who sucks cock.

There are other situations where you should swallow cum. If a man fucks you, he may cum inside you or into a condom. In the first case, stuff several fingers into yourself (at least two) and put the cum in your mouth. The fact that you are tasting your own pussy or ass will make it better for him. Also remember to clean off his cock. In this case licking can be good, because he wants you to taste it.

If he came into a condom, you should invert the condom into your mouth. He may also do this for you. Condoms are also an easy way of filling up a bra with cum so you can wear it for the rest of the day. Once the condom is mostly empty, put it into your mouth and lick it clean. Don't take it out until he tells you to. Condoms can taste very bad. Your suffering will please him.

THE REST OF YOUR BODY

While you are sucking cock, there is no reason not to use the rest of your body to improve the experience for him. You have a lot of options.

If your hands are free, you should use them on yourself. You can play with your tits or finger your pussy or asshole. Don't try to pleasure yourself, just penetrate yourself deeply. If he momentarily stops fucking your throat, stick those same fingers into your mouth and keep going. There is no reason for you not to be gagging.

Dildos and buttplugs are also useful. If your position allows it, they can also free your hands so that you can have your holes fucked and still play with your tits. Bottles (beer, shampoo) can be used as well.

Clamping your nipples during a blowjob isn't always a good idea, as he may want to play with them himself, but the bouncing caused by your throat being fucked will make the clamps hurt you more. It will be uncomfortable for you and look very good for him.

DILDOS AND OTHER OBJECTS

You should start learning how to humiliate yourself without a cock. A dildo can do a very good job of degrading you. You can use a dildo to show your man what a slut you are by gagging on it nonstop for a long time. Since the dildo will never cum, you can keep gagging on it until he tells you to stop. This can mean ten minutes or three hours. To make it better, use the dildo on all of your holes. He will appreciate your facial expression as you gag on your own pussy juices. Not being wet is not an excuse.

A man can also use a dildo to fuck your throat. Such throatfucks are usually some of the roughest you can experience. Now the man is not getting any pleasure at all. He is only doing this to hurt you. Keep your hands busy and away from your mouth.

Other objects can also be used to fuck your throat. Bottles are a popular choice and easily available. If your bed has a bedpost, gag on it before and after fucking it. Men enjoy seeing women using inanimate objects from their environment as sex toys. They know that after an object has been used to degrade or hurt you, you will never look at it the same way again. They want everything around you to remind you of the slutty things you've done.

PANTIES

Your panties are an important part of you as a woman. They express who you are and how you deserve to be used.

When sucking a man's cock, always wear a thong or G-string. They can come in very handy.

In many positions a man can use your thong to hurt your pussy by pulling on it as he fucks your throat. It also makes your ass look slutty, like it should. Wear tight thongs that split your pussy lips. If they are slightly painful to wear, they are the right size.

Your panties can be put into your mouth before, after and even during a blowjob. They can also be stuffed into your pussy to increase your discomfort as you suck. If nothing else is happening to your pussy, you should always do this yourself. When he's done fucking your throat, you can take them out and put them into your mouth as a sign of how much of a whore you are.

Panties can also be used to wipe cum off your body so it can go where it belongs: your mouth.

THE THIRD RULE OF BLOWJOBS: VOMITING IS NO REASON TO STOP

If you follow the rules, it's possible that you will throw up while being throatfucked. This is not a reason to stop sucking or to complain. Most men aren't turned on by the vomit but by your humiliation. Keep taking the cock as hard as before, just remember to clean up your mess after you're done like a good girl.

IDEAS TO KEEP IT INTERESTING

Suck his cock after he's just pissed. You'll have to get used to the taste anyway. Begin by licking the drops of piss off his cock with your tongue.

Suck his cock after he's fucked another woman. Maybe one of your friends, or your sister.

Always use the same panties to wipe off the cum and put it in your mouth. Never wash them. Every time you use them will be more disgusting for you and more exciting for him.

Try taking his cock and a dildo into your throat at the same time.

Sleep at night with a dildo or buttplug in your mouth.

Suck cock in public.

Film yourself sucking cock, then suck him while watching a video of yourself gagging and crying.

Talk to your girlfriends about cocksucking.

Throatfuck yourself with a dildo in public.

Come up with new ideas! You're a slut, act like one.

- Erin -

i confess that my gf wanted to do a rape roleplay and i might of took it too far
she had a safeword and everything and now wont talk to me... we talked for an hour before it, she told me she didnt want me to hold back and wanted to feel lots of pain, she told me she wanted me to hurt her and leave her marked and feel like trash.
i did a goodjob i thought, she never said safeword so anything should fucking go right guys/? i just wanted to make the bitch happy.

when we begun i opened our bedroom door and demanded her on her knees and throatfucked her for 20 min. i did this nonstop and she couldnt breath i then punched her and slapped her stomach. i then ignored the tears and she told me to punch her nose so i did and blood came, i then flipped her over and stuck a broom in her cunt
then i fucked her ass usuing only her blood as lube and she was screaming begging me to stop but i didnt, i think she tore something and was scared but i didnt stop, when she cried i just slapped her in her face till she frozeup and absorbed the pain. good little cunt i thought then i forced her to jerk me off over her slutty face.. now shes mad