I'm a 26-year old female. I confess that it has been five years since my ass has been fucked. :(
I have mixed feelings about this situation. Firstly, it makes me sad, because I am absolutely in love with having "Daddy" stuff his fat cock inside my ass.
I can do the screaming and crying schtick if that's what will make you happy (it is often what does the trick for me, as well), but my default is more along the lines of screaming and crying because it feels so motherfucking amazing. So, sad face.
When I last had my asshole fucked, I was in a relationship with a man who was 29 years my senior and mostly only fucked my asshole, which I was quite happy with, especially considering he was so thick. That was 2008.
Since then, the man I was in a long-term relationship with in 2009-2011 was so busy having me do far more fucked up and filthy shit, my ass being fucked didn't even really occur to us. Granted, we were long-distance for about half that time.
After that ended, I was busy with life and only "dating" occasionally. But I'm picky, and both the vanilla boys and the not-remotely-vanilla boys just aren't doing it for me where I live, so it hasn't come up.
So, more sad face.
But!
I've started looking at it almost like a badge of honor or revirginization of my ass or something. Now that it's been so long, I don't want to give it to up to just any loser. I want someone I know for sure knows what he's doing, someone who makes me want to do nothing but reach back and spread my ass open for him, to take it.
Truthfully, I'm a tiny bit nervous about my new first time. I don't remember who fucked my ass the first time or what it was like at all; I'm assuming it wasn't too traumatic since I don't remember.
This time, because I'm nervous, I hope it doesn't hurt. I kind of want him to be gentle.
But I don't. I really don't want him to be gentle with me, and I really do want it to hurt.
I fucking miss it so much. :(
