Confession.

I am a 47 yo man with mild Asperger's. I've been married for ten years, with three small kids, and wife is pregnant (oops).

Had a great deal of trouble talking to girls when I was younger. Eventually, when I was 21 I started going to strip clubs which helped me overcome that to some extent. I was still a virgin until I was 29, when I finally worked up the nerve to visit a brothel, and lost it to a sweet Russian whore named Tanya. Spent the next five years going to the brothels of the 'Golden Triangle' once every week or two, and spending about $50 for 40 minutes of GFE sex with the Russian and Eastern European girls I found there. Most of them didn't speak much English, but in many ways that made it easier, since I didn't have to try to have a conversation with them. I had several scares with broken condoms, but thankfully I never caught anything.

During this time, I was also trying computer dating, but I never got much interest from the dates I went on, and never had a third date with any of the non-pro girls.

A couple of the prostitutes seemed to become very fond of me, wanting to see me outside of the brothel and even hinted at marriage, but I didn't think that was such a great idea.

Eventually the local pay-for-play scene went downhill, and I became more interested in settling down. I started dating a girl from India, and after about 16 months we got married. My wife had a lot of hang-ups about sex due to her upbringing. It particular, there is a large cultural taboo against cunnilingus in India, and it took me years to finally get her to relax enough to really enjoy it, although she still resists if she hasn't had a shower within the last couple of hours. Personally, I enjoy eating her out more first thing in the morning, when her cunt is a little funky. She's still pretty repressed in the sack, but I'm able to fantasize that she's more freaky, and it's usually enough.

She generally needs a lot of foreplay to get in the mood. What I usually do now (in the evenings, after the kids are asleep) is give her a hot oil massage. I start with her shoulders, her upper arms, and her lower back, delivering little kisses as I go. Then I move to her feet, calves, and thighs. I then start to work on her inner thighs and hips. After she's really worked up, I have her roll over, and massage her inner thighs a bit longer, before I start to nibble on her pussy through her panties. At that point I usually push them aside for a bit so I can get a taste. Then I tell her how sweet her cunt is and how fucking wet it has become, before I rip her panties off for real and start eating her out with abandon. After I get her off a couple of times, I move up to kiss her while I slide my cock into her.

I love to fantasize about breaking down all of her inhibitions. I imagine us on vacation in Bangkok, getting her drunk in the hotel room. Then I'd pretend to order a massage for her from the hotel, while I'm actually making an long-time outcall from a massage parlour. Then she would get a long sensuous rubdown, followed by the girl pushing my wife's panties to the side and eating her out, while my hidden camera records the whole thing. Then I would return to the room while they are sixty-nine'ing on the bed, and would join in for the rest of the night.

I also imagine planning a night of seduction while her sexy old niece is having a sleepover with our daughters. Getting my wife drunk, (she gets really horny when she's drunk), and eating her out for an hour, while her niece looks on through the partially open door and fingers herself. Fucking my wife in reverse-cowgirl with a blindfold over her eyes, as her niece slips into the room and gets closer and closer, overcome with lust. I dream of holding her arms behind her back as her virginal niece begins sucking on her tits, and keeping her from stopping her niece as she begins kissing her way down to where my dick is slowly pistoning in and out of her dripping snatch.

Unfortunately, my dreams of watching my wife going down on pretty girls is pretty damn unlikely. She has a mucus phobia, and can't stand touching anyone else's mucus, or even her own. I'm not sure she realizes that pussy cream is a kind of mucus, though, and she doesn't hesitate to DFK me after I've

Lately, our sex life has been going downhill. Since my doctor increased the dosage on my blood pressure meds, I've been finding it difficult to maintain an erection with her long enough for me to reach orgasm. I don't have any trouble reaching climax while jerking off, so the problem seems to be that while I'm focusing on getting her off in the tender way she likes, I'm not really able to remain aroused enough to get off myself.

I performed cunnilingus as well as other things on my sister, who was 6. It was back when I was 8, we were in the bathtub together, and I asked her what her crotch looked like up close. She responded by sitting against the edge of the tub, spreading her legs, and waiting diligently. I quickly proceeded to prod and lick it for some reason I can't quite recall. She started moaning and shaking, and I asked if she was okay. She said she was okay, it just felt good.
I then told her to get out of the tub and lie on the floor. She did so, and I got out as well. I started sticking my fingers inside of her, asking if it still felt good. She barely managed to say yes through all of her moaning and gasping. I then asked if I could put my crotch on hers. She agreed, and I started to lie on top of her. Whilst I did, however, my genitalia slipped and slid into her vagina. I gave a slight moan of pleasure, asked her if she wanted to do it again, and she nodded her head. I then proceeded to thrust in and out of her rather sloppily, and after a bit, she moaned really loudly, locked her legs around me, and I started to cum. I told her that I was about to pee, but she didn't seem to release her hold at all.

A few seconds later, I cried out, thrust once more back in her, and came. We were both lying on the floor for a bit, recuperating, and she said it was the best thing she had ever felt. The same goes for me, and I can still remember it vividly.

I saw this on tumblr and it made me wet just reading it, thought I'd share.

On Finger Fucking.

With the right girl, finger fucking can be one of the great delights in the dance. Yet, the difference between a repetitive mechanical act and a proper finger fucking can be huge. To truly make this an amazing experience, a Dominant must appreciate the possibilities, have good technique, and invest the time to know his girl thoroughly - inside and out.

Indeed. I like to take the time to explore my girl with my fingers, caressing her lips first to see just how sensitive they are. Few vanilla men ever realize that it is not always about penetration - and even fewer know the right girl can cum just from having the insides of her lips caressed in just the right way.

I like to visit my girl�s clit next. And here is where the distinction begins. A vanilla man will rub a clit like a lamp and expect the magic orgasm genie to pop out. A Dominant will explore much more sensually.

I like to trace up along her lips to her clit, pull her hood back gently, and then caress her with just the tip of a finger to see how responsive it is. Pressure is not the key. Erotic contact brings her right to the edge, and my ministrations include light pinching, working the shaft of her clit between two fingers, exploring the incredibly erogenous areas alongside and above, and gentle rubbing while I hold her hood back to expose her hot little pearl.

I should mention that I will rarely allow my girl to cum while I explore. I use this opportunity to gauge her responses (verbal and physical) and learn the best ways to edge her and tantalize her. I feel the way her body moves, and I listen for the erotic tension in her voice as she begs to cum for me. Over and over. And over again.

I then impale her, sliding my finger into her dripping wet cunt. I make sure she appreciates the way I penetrate her - using one continuous motion to work my finger deep into her until the knuckles of my other fingers are against her lips. I listen for the sudden uptake of her breath and for her whimpers and moans, and I feel the way her hips and ass move and her pussy spasms around my finger - sometimes clenching and releasing as I press on.

The next part of this dance clearly separates experienced Dominants from the rest of the pack. While we often talk about finger fucking, I rarely use a repetitive in/out solo finger thrust. There is really not that much erotic pleasure in this, as a cock would be much more fulfilling.

The key to a girl�s orgasmic pleasure is her g-spot - and this is where I focus the most time on my girl�s cunt. I work my way up her frontal wall with my finger and then crook it back, probing down until I find it - tucked down in its little pocket. I massage it as I watch her toes curl and her hips buck - learning the best areas and pressure to use form these cues. I will not allow her to cum just yet.

From this point forward, no two girls are alike. I use what I have learned about my girl to work each area and give her the most incredible sensations (and climaxes) of her life. I vary the number of fingers I use, the ways in which I clench and rub her g-spot, and the number of times I deny her orgasm.

When it is time for my girl to experience orgasmic bliss, I am mindful of what some Tantra experts refer to as a winding of an erotic pleasure center spring. The more I can edge her to orgasm and deny her release, the more I can wind this spring in her body. And each time I choose to release this spring, I can bring her to incredible orgasms. Over and over. And over again.

Finally, when I have wound my girl tightly and built an insatiable desire, I work her g-spot hard. If she has been a good girl, I will use a tantric grip, sliding my third and fourth fingers into her cunt and only THEN thrusting back and forth repeatedly, my other two fingers slamming into her outer lips, and the heel of my hand impacting against the top part of her pussy and clit.

I say just four words, and the magic commences:

�Cum for me, girl.�

She releases her entire being to me, convulsing and bucking with incredible pleasure spasms. As she shudders and sings to me with squeals, moans, and shrieks of joy, she pants out the words that make me feel so honored and complete�.

�Cumming for YOU, SIR!�

I repeat this last sequence over and over, and my girl can cum many, many times. The most joyful part is when her eyes open wide like silver dollars - amazed at what she is experiencing in her own body - finally released properly.

This is what makes the dance on the fringe of darkness such a joy�